My shop, art, etc... Mental road block...

My shop update.
I’ve been emotionally detached from my items for the longest time now. I mean, the lady miss. V thinks I copied, that’s all where this started. Where I realized, even though I know I’ve been sewing longer then they know and stuff… It’s like I still feel, that lady is like Pepsi or Coke and I’m Sam’s Cola from Casco’s… It feels bad. I’ve been dying to sew for months, yet cant, because I feel no matter how different I decorate my can, per say, I’m still, generic I guess?
So come’s the question. How do I fix this? Make my stuff, Brandon Wagner %110. No one else should have what I make. I want completely awesome stuff that’s mine.
But I love what I already am doing?… But I guess things can only change for the better? I feel like I’m not welcome in the sewing/handmade world anymore to be honest… I haven’t posted items in months. I haven’t worked on my site in weeks. I’m gone dry, because I feel restricted.
My sewing machine, is sitting in a cubby on my desk… I have garlands and plushies flying around the room. I am, %100 stressed with this whole situation…
I wish I could just start over, and I never say that… But being a Sam’s cola?… That’s embarrassing… What would Sam’s cola do?… hmmm…. Quit making cola and make a Sam’s candy bar or something crazy?
I make so many things… But not being able to make things now, is, ripping me apart. I want to cry it’s so bad. This teacher and this lady, have sent me down hill from day one, and left me to wilt away!
Why can’t people be nice?
Or shut up.
I see them all going to craft shows, being in the craft mafia and B.E.S.T. teams etc… and while I’m alone, on my own, with so so much talent… I really need a break. But that’s just not happening right now.
Maybe I need to develop myself more? What do I make… damn.
Plushes
Sculptures
Garlands
Envelopes
More
More
More…

I need to develop. I’m 15... I think I need to remember that to be honest… I feel like I push myself to hard, to be pushed to hard… Like, people expect so so much, so quick…
I need money, for my studio… but still… then that involves me developing myself quick again…
Gah! I can’t win!
Maybe… I should stick with my octopus, bunny and whale sculptures? And whatever else I make from clay.
Use the fabric I have…
Sell at a flea market etc.
Worry about marketing less? I mean, I feel like I know it all already… my head explodes from marketing etc. I really do, know it all. I just can’t put it into action, if I’m non-developed to my standards.
I need to set my standers. ME. And I will.
What if someone already makes clay sculptures like me? I guess I should research? Or maybe put it off, and ignore the internet…
Keep to myself.
Stay in Baltimore and grow my name here.
So confusing… Comment please.
I need some help with this…

Xoxo-Brann.